It's hard because the wedding is in my small home town, which is filled with people I enjoy and care about and have been close to in the past and would totally love to get together with at a BBQ or party. It's hard to say no. Because I do want to spend some time with them, it's just that Adam and I have deliberatly made this a small, closest friends and family event only.

So I just have to pony up the guts to say that. For all my "take no bullshit" attitude it's a little sad/creepy/humbling to see the people pleasers parts in me surfacing.