Apr. 4th, 2010

Pasg hapus

Apr. 4th, 2010 05:33 pm
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I love Easter. The whole point of Christianity is the resurrection. It's one reason I enjoy the Eastern Orthodox Church: their emphasis on resurrection and less on the crucifixion. I believe in humans' ability to resurrect themselves, not in some far off, 'one day', after the rapture kind of a way, but in the Here and Now sort of way: second chances, moments of deep renewal, catharsis, initiation - all little (and some times big) experiences of resurrection. I like the metaphor of spring, that every year without fail new growth arrives. Today is so perfectly delightful here. While playing with Bennett in the park this afternoon I enjoyed the warmth of the sun, I noticed all the daffodils in bloom, and noticed all the little pink, yellow, white, green buds on anything and everything that grows. I actually got a thrill from hanging the laundry out on the line to dry in the sun. But I don't think this burst of spring captures the momentousness and enormity of the resurrection. I don't mean that last phrase to suggest that it's because Jesus is the One and Only saviour. I don't really believe that any more. He's real AND a symbol. I think he's the saviour and also not the only one. The deeper I dive into Christianity, the more I swim around in my own experience, I find that the only way to interpret Jesus is in the both/and context. Resurrection, transformation, union with the Divine, obliteration of dualistic thinking, renewal, enlightenment, liberation: all these things come to mind when I think of Easter.

I am a little disappointed that I didn't go to church today. I am so ambivalent about attending and participating and committing in the life of a church. I count participating as committing. I make too much of it, this much is true. I'm almost ready to accept that I will always be one of those 'floaters,' those people that church ministers go to conferences to try and figure out what needs they need met or topics they want to hear in sermons so they'll join and tithe and all that. I am perhaps one of the most religious people I know and yet.... I just can't seem to join in.

Today's Easter started with sun salutations. It has involved hiding the eggs I dyed red in beet juice, once in the living room and once at the park. Bennett loved it. He's eaten an ungodly amount of eggs today. It will end with burritos.

I wish all of you a blessed day, regardless of what you do or don't celebrate.


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