Well, I guess I've had envious moments, but for me envy and jealousy are very different. I was envious of people who didn't have premies! Babies who were fat and gaining 2 lbs in a week and such. But today was really a *gasp!* moment. More like, instead "wow, that's something I'd like and great for her" it was "oh my god, no way, I feel so bad about myself, how dare she." Yuck.