I probably shouldn't have read this--it made me cry. I know it's hard for everyone, but I've wanted to think it would have been easier if I'd had something approaching adequate supply. I've been hoping that if I have good drugs/hormonal help next time, I can do it. But reading your story and your AAM's, despite both of your huge successes, was a bit daunting. Not that I won't try--even harder assuming it's just one next time--but I guess I shouldn't assume I can provide even 50% of #3's nutrients by breastfeeding.