My week

[theatokos]

This last week has been so odd. I have crashed after more than a week of high energy, focus, and massive amounts of reading. I now can barely bring myself to string a coherent thought together. At the beginning of the week Bennett started a new trend of waking up at 5.30 am. At first I thought his was great: I was fed, dressed, checked in, exercised, etc all before 8am! Win! But it's been every morning this week. Doesn't matter what time he goes to bed, he is up with the birds. It hits me right in the middle of a dream cycle and I spend the beginning of the day somewhere in the spaces between dreaming and awake. It's unsettling. It is also difficult because he's waking up demanding boo-boos and crying when it doesn't happen RIGHTNOW. Being followed around by a whining, crying toddler whilst trying to pee and feed the now also whining cats at that hour of the morning is too much for me.

Yesterday was the worst day yet. I decided to take advantage of the early start and work on my paper. I need to add a section about suffering. I went to my cafe of choice and bought a coffee (which I rarely do). I had already had a cup of tea at home. Later in the morning a friend came by and bought me more tea and then.... it hit me. I had had WAY too much caffeine on far too little food and by 11 am I was CRACKED OUT. It was incredibly uncomfortable and I couldn't think. My mind was racing. Then I crashed in the late afternoon and felt ill. Whee.

So today, I'm wrecked. Up again at 5.30. But the house is clean(ish), the laundry hung. I made huevos rancheros. And then Bennett dumped all the cat litter out of the box and onto the floor.

Seriously, gypsies? I'm offering a special: I'll pay YOU to take him.

Comments

[bravenewcentury.livejournal.com]

Maybe David Bowie the Goblin King would take him off your hands?

[calizen.livejournal.com]

If you're not inherently an early bird, life is remarkably tough, even with one's best intentions.

[msmidge.livejournal.com]

UGH. That sounds really frustrating!

[keypike.livejournal.com]

Henry has been waking up very early this week, too. I think they are simply tuning into the earlier sunrise - which is natural and makes sense, but sucks. And I have learned (at least with Henry) there is zero relationship between bedtime & waketime.

I am clearly a cracked-out caffeine addict, because I have about 24 oz of coffee before 9 a.m. :/

[ewigweibliche.livejournal.com]

Actually, I love being up early. But for some reason, the 5.30/6am time must fall at just the wrong place for me. I figured I'd have adjusted to the new schedule by now, but.... no.

[ewigweibliche.livejournal.com]

I cut coffee out of my life about 2 years ago? Can't remember maybe longer, to help with my anxiety issues. It was very very helpful. Black tea doesn't seem to affect me that much. But I shouldn't have had coffee if I was having tea. It killed me.

Or perhaps I am just a special, little sensitve princess. ;)

[ewigweibliche.livejournal.com]

The worst part is not being able to focus my mind. I was all ready and willing to work on my paper and...... no. I'm struggling today to concentrate as well. Blargh. Thank god I don't have any concrete deadlines .... yet....

[amyura.livejournal.com]

Best. Comment. EVER.

[ewigweibliche.livejournal.com]

I have never been a fan of Labyrinth I'm afraid. Although in my gender queer world Bowie/Goblin King would be far more progressive than the gypsies!

[miss-swamp.livejournal.com]

Maybe some blackout curtains? We put them in all the bedrooms and we've all been sleeping better/later.

But in the meantime, yeah, ugh.

[ewigweibliche.livejournal.com]

Growing up in Alaska we had thick shades for that very reason. We have flimsy shitty curtains in the bedroom. It was freezing all winter with the draft. We do need to bust out money for better curtains. Sigh. More things to buy. And I have one pair of pants that fit that don't have holes.

One one hand, I like waking with the sun. But obviously, it's not working for me right now.

[lopezuna.livejournal.com]

For a cheap alternative, a flattened cardboard box taped over the window? Not pretty, but definitely opaque. I think I'm going to do that. Too damn lazy to drill the holes in the wall that a more permanent solution would require.