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Life with B
When it comes to Bennett, Adam and I are pretty lucky. We've managed to keep living our lives - modified of course. Our personal spiritual practices are quite short, I'm lucky if I get 20 minutes of easy yoga 4 times a week and lucky if I get more than 5 minutes of meditation a day. We've managed to go out with friends, be spontaneous, and figure out a sleeping/feeding "schedule" that allows us some rest. We're especially lucky that B loves to be in the sling and will just conk out. But then... he also hates to be put down for too long. He LOVES being up close to one of us. It's incredibly sweet, but if I can manage to leave him in his basket I want more than that 20 minute window.
My patience is faltering. When does he get fun? He smiles rarely. He's alert a lot, but he's not interested in socially engaging yet. He is either chill and observant or crying. I know he'll get chipper on his own schedule, but it would be a nice incentive for me. It's hard to read about other people's babies being all cute and smiley and gaining weight, when B is still only 6 1/2 pounds. He's 8 1/2 weeks and still in premie clothes! Ack! I know... he's gaining on his own time. I can tell he's growing and developing. His alert times are more alert and he's grown out of his special goodmama-style premie diapers - only in length though, not in girth. I wonder if I'm going to have a string bean for a son!
Plus, the little guy is eating like there's no tomorrow. My boobs are getting sore. Yesterday I nursed him in between interviews (not so fruitful, sigh) and when we got home he nursed for 2 /12 hours straight! AAAAHH! And *then* he was still hungry! I was close to tears because I so worn out so I went to bed and Adam ended up feeding him 6 oz of formula in an hour. Holy COW. And because of the constant eating he's wetting more often and in greater volume so I'm doing laundry just about every day. I should've gotten more diapers!
The pediatrician said she expected B to catch up size and weight wise by 6 months. That's only 4 months away and I wondered how that would be possible. .....by spending the next four months in a feeding frenzy, that's how!
My patience is faltering. When does he get fun? He smiles rarely. He's alert a lot, but he's not interested in socially engaging yet. He is either chill and observant or crying. I know he'll get chipper on his own schedule, but it would be a nice incentive for me. It's hard to read about other people's babies being all cute and smiley and gaining weight, when B is still only 6 1/2 pounds. He's 8 1/2 weeks and still in premie clothes! Ack! I know... he's gaining on his own time. I can tell he's growing and developing. His alert times are more alert and he's grown out of his special goodmama-style premie diapers - only in length though, not in girth. I wonder if I'm going to have a string bean for a son!
Plus, the little guy is eating like there's no tomorrow. My boobs are getting sore. Yesterday I nursed him in between interviews (not so fruitful, sigh) and when we got home he nursed for 2 /12 hours straight! AAAAHH! And *then* he was still hungry! I was close to tears because I so worn out so I went to bed and Adam ended up feeding him 6 oz of formula in an hour. Holy COW. And because of the constant eating he's wetting more often and in greater volume so I'm doing laundry just about every day. I should've gotten more diapers!
The pediatrician said she expected B to catch up size and weight wise by 6 months. That's only 4 months away and I wondered how that would be possible. .....by spending the next four months in a feeding frenzy, that's how!
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around 3-4 months, the real smiles come. the fake cries to get your attention. the recognition when they see your face or hear you voice. little bits of personality. and parenting becomes, well, fun. by 6 months i was thrilled to have a little person to take care of.
it'll get fun. promise. just take it easy for now.
ETA: feeding frenzy is fleeting too. those 2 hour nursing sessions are generally down to 15-30 minutes by 6 months. [well, our pre-bed one wasn't, but after months of 10 hour nursing days, i didn't care much.] if you don't mind me chiming in with a suggestion -- did you try eating dinner and watching a movie when you feed him in the evening? reading and internet made the day-time ones easier to deal with.
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I'm also impatient for his smile, because the few times he does it (as he's falling asleep) it's freakishly cute and so impish. I want to see mooooore!
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re: the dinner thing - the all-day, mid-night feedings were killer, but i grew to rather enjoy "family dinner" time. we'd make dinner and watch a movie while elly ate. not most comfortable but definitely sweet.
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