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[theatokos]

At one of my many meetings today some one's coffee cup had a map of the world on it. I saw Alaska on it and I was overwhelmed with the realization that as excited as I am to go to Wales, it's not SE Alaska. I was hit with longing for the rocky coast, the greys and greens, the foreboding expanses of evergreens, the quiet.... gah. I die a little every year more I spend NOT in Alaska.

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[snowcalla.livejournal.com]

Then why are you not moving back to Alaska?

[ewigweibliche.livejournal.com]

Yeah..... I know. Honestly, the time isn't right. Maybe it never will be. Trust me, I'm listening for it. I am also wary that this longing is becoming part of my identity - and I don't want that. It's possible that I may want to move there once my degree is done. But we may still move to Olympia - which would only be one plane flight from Juneau.

I was more just struck with the intense punch of longing that happened in that moment. That hasn't happened in a long time.

[msmidge.livejournal.com]

I love that you have that sense of home and connectedness to it. There are things about it that I really miss, but there's no way I could live there again, not permanently, or at least not that I can imagine. It's kind of sad, but it is what it is.