You're so welcome! I sort of feel like I was cheating, because so many bits of what you write remind me of myself, especially my days in Alaska. Sometimes I just want to run off to NH and live in the trees and drive a truck to farmers markets and work at a women's collective and hold "church" outside. And then run off to a bluegrass show with you.
Ahem.
I resonate most powerfully with green spaces, too. Especially fjords and forests, rocky beaches, the like. There's an intimidating power in those places, something that says "I am way bigger than you, I was here before mankind and I will be here long after." But that power also makes me feel strong and neither too big or too small. When I'm out hiking or fishing, I feel right-sized and for me that's being connected with God/dess, the Divine, the Holy Mother, whathaveyou. Community is also a niggling concept for me too. It's so pervasive in how I live my life - community of choice that is. It's much harder for me to feel part of a larger community in a transient, fragmented, varied urban place with millions of people. And I've never been good at church, so spiritual community is very new for me. But me, I'm obsessed with God and think about religion or spirituality or something like that all the time. I'm odd like that.
In the Eastern Orthodox Christian tradition there is a saying that one who prays is a theologian. Theology is not just for the learned and smarty-pants, but more importantly theology is about the prayer of the heart, for that's the only way to truly know God. You seem like you're on to something.
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Date: 2007-02-21 07:02 pm (UTC)Ahem.
I resonate most powerfully with green spaces, too. Especially fjords and forests, rocky beaches, the like. There's an intimidating power in those places, something that says "I am way bigger than you, I was here before mankind and I will be here long after." But that power also makes me feel strong and neither too big or too small. When I'm out hiking or fishing, I feel right-sized and for me that's being connected with God/dess, the Divine, the Holy Mother, whathaveyou. Community is also a niggling concept for me too. It's so pervasive in how I live my life - community of choice that is. It's much harder for me to feel part of a larger community in a transient, fragmented, varied urban place with millions of people. And I've never been good at church, so spiritual community is very new for me. But me, I'm obsessed with God and think about religion or spirituality or something like that all the time. I'm odd like that.
In the Eastern Orthodox Christian tradition there is a saying that one who prays is a theologian. Theology is not just for the learned and smarty-pants, but more importantly theology is about the prayer of the heart, for that's the only way to truly know God. You seem like you're on to something.