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Happy Hanukkah
Dec. 7th, 2004 11:34 amI am trying to make the days feel more holiday-ish. I have ![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
missmary6's wonderful Christmas disc playing and some red and green candles lit in an effort to get some pep. It's not cold, there isn't any snow, and there won't be any. We had a storm last night. The rattling windows and pelting rain reminded me of fall. Fall is winter here. Which isn't a bad thing. Actually, it's quite wonderful here: grey fog and overcast sky with clear pale sun filtering through, a damp nip to the air, and wet detritus littering the concrete walkways. I like it and feel cozy. But not Christmasy.
I suppose the general stressed out chaos round these parts doesn't help the situation. Everyone's stress sucks the delight out of the air as people freak over papers due and organizing family plans. I am grateful for my new, surrogate family. I have spoken to my mother twice in the month of November, so I'm way over my Oct-April budget. And my sister seems to be MIA. I so want to love my family and have them love me too. But I guess I can't dictate how they love me. I just have to take what they offer, which often doesn't feel like much.
Maybe once school is out and papers turned in and people go away it will feel more like the holidays. I'll have some time to send cards and maybe get a pointsettia for my room. And plan a solstice party for Feast Bay.
missmary6's wonderful Christmas disc playing and some red and green candles lit in an effort to get some pep. It's not cold, there isn't any snow, and there won't be any. We had a storm last night. The rattling windows and pelting rain reminded me of fall. Fall is winter here. Which isn't a bad thing. Actually, it's quite wonderful here: grey fog and overcast sky with clear pale sun filtering through, a damp nip to the air, and wet detritus littering the concrete walkways. I like it and feel cozy. But not Christmasy.I suppose the general stressed out chaos round these parts doesn't help the situation. Everyone's stress sucks the delight out of the air as people freak over papers due and organizing family plans. I am grateful for my new, surrogate family. I have spoken to my mother twice in the month of November, so I'm way over my Oct-April budget. And my sister seems to be MIA. I so want to love my family and have them love me too. But I guess I can't dictate how they love me. I just have to take what they offer, which often doesn't feel like much.
Maybe once school is out and papers turned in and people go away it will feel more like the holidays. I'll have some time to send cards and maybe get a pointsettia for my room. And plan a solstice party for Feast Bay.