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I have been out of town five out of the last eight weekends since Christmas. One of those weekends here was spent taking 10 hours of theology class. I realized this morning that I don't think I've been this busy (all this extra neat stuff on top of my regular singing, yoga, reading, Feast Bay, work, etc.) since my last year living in Juneau. I was working full time at the high school and for several months over winter and spring I was spending my afternoons doing vocal direction for the high school musical and my evenings rehearsing as Paquette in Bernstein's Candide for the Juneau Lyric Opera. My partner at the time and I also had a late night radio show on Sundays. Plus, in my spare time I would help out with the other shows for which she was doing sound production or set design. I remember being very happy then. At that time though I wasn't also working on my shit. It's amazing how much energy that takes.

I want to do everything and I just can't. Therefore, I've quit the theology class I was taking. I can't bear to have to spend another ten hours discussing theology, BARTing to and from, and then on Sunday go wine tasting with Alaska friends. It's all good stuff, but it's all too much stuff. My plan is thus, now that I am theology class-free: I will watch Superman Returns on Friday night since it's been sitting around the house for weeks and Saturday I will make NO PLANS, nor spend time with anyone but myself.

Despite being run ragged, I am constitutionally well. I think I'm actually quite happy and excited about various things in my life. I just haven't had any time to BE happy. I'll get the gist of this balance thing, eventually.