A California day
Sep. 11th, 2008 10:05 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
theatokosToday was a good California day. And an overall positive day in general.
At first, I was afraid it was going to be awful. I've been stressed out about the staff retreat I've been planning, which met today and finishes up tomorrow. I haven't felt focused and I feared that it would be a meandering waste of everyone's time. Bennett was off his usual schedule last night so I didn't get much sleep. To top it off, I had very weird, not happy dreams.
But it all worked out. Our retreat is happening at the UC Berkeley Faculty Club. It's a beautiful Mission? art deco? style building. (My architectural knowledge is next to non-existent) Wood paneling and vaulted ceilings. It's surrounded by trees, with little groves and fountains. Students pass near by. It's nice.
The retreat itself has been incredibly productive and the time flew by. I felt focused and got a lot more fired up for my job and participation in this organization. I like feeling important, productive and part of something innovative and respected.
During a break, walking around the grounds with Bennett (who was a freaking rock star today - he too sat through the retreat! Only two minor fusses, each alleviated with boob!), I thought about how beautiful it was today, how much I felt part of a team, how grateful I am that I'm growing professionally. I also thought about what I needed to keep living here.
I need to live in trees. I need to live in a greener, leafier part of the Bay (which means big money). I've got to get away from such busy, loud, smelly streets and find neighbors nearby. I want to be able to see people, know families, go over to people's houses for dinner on a whim or something. I think it's possible around here.... maybe?
I also know that I can't work at this organization forever. For one thing, I can only grow so much at this place. I am not Jewish nor a Jewish educator. I can only ever be the Director of Admin. Not that I necessarily want to run this particular organization, but after three years I've already maxed out. I take great pride in working for the Jewish community here, but it is not *my* community and I want to work for something I am more passionate about.
I don't think I can conceivably leave my job until the spring of 2010. I also don't want to put B in daycare, but I just don't see a way around that. Not yet anyway.
And I still don't know what to do about my degree or school.
But, for half an hour, I felt hopeful that maybe I could be happy here more often on a more permanent basis.
At first, I was afraid it was going to be awful. I've been stressed out about the staff retreat I've been planning, which met today and finishes up tomorrow. I haven't felt focused and I feared that it would be a meandering waste of everyone's time. Bennett was off his usual schedule last night so I didn't get much sleep. To top it off, I had very weird, not happy dreams.
But it all worked out. Our retreat is happening at the UC Berkeley Faculty Club. It's a beautiful Mission? art deco? style building. (My architectural knowledge is next to non-existent) Wood paneling and vaulted ceilings. It's surrounded by trees, with little groves and fountains. Students pass near by. It's nice.
The retreat itself has been incredibly productive and the time flew by. I felt focused and got a lot more fired up for my job and participation in this organization. I like feeling important, productive and part of something innovative and respected.
During a break, walking around the grounds with Bennett (who was a freaking rock star today - he too sat through the retreat! Only two minor fusses, each alleviated with boob!), I thought about how beautiful it was today, how much I felt part of a team, how grateful I am that I'm growing professionally. I also thought about what I needed to keep living here.
I need to live in trees. I need to live in a greener, leafier part of the Bay (which means big money). I've got to get away from such busy, loud, smelly streets and find neighbors nearby. I want to be able to see people, know families, go over to people's houses for dinner on a whim or something. I think it's possible around here.... maybe?
I also know that I can't work at this organization forever. For one thing, I can only grow so much at this place. I am not Jewish nor a Jewish educator. I can only ever be the Director of Admin. Not that I necessarily want to run this particular organization, but after three years I've already maxed out. I take great pride in working for the Jewish community here, but it is not *my* community and I want to work for something I am more passionate about.
I don't think I can conceivably leave my job until the spring of 2010. I also don't want to put B in daycare, but I just don't see a way around that. Not yet anyway.
And I still don't know what to do about my degree or school.
But, for half an hour, I felt hopeful that maybe I could be happy here more often on a more permanent basis.