the ambivalence of nice

[theatokos]

I think I stupidly gave up the opportunity for essentially my own office out of an urge to be nice and flexible. Have I been transient for so long that I'm ready to acquiesce at the drop of a hat? I mean, I still have a large space and will only be sharing it with one other guy. But still.... I coulda had my own office (with some very absent students books stacked in the corner). I have to wait another year for the possibility of an office to myself.

I don't know if I don't care or if I'm really annoyed. I'm the only woman and only white person up here. The other grad students are males from Korea and China. I feel immensely more privileged in many regards than them (dood, they are doing PhDs in what is at best a second language. Color me impressed) so why hoarde space?

I dunno.