It's always interesting listening to you attempt to extricate yourself from the mire of your belief. I think that you have an intensely primitive sense of god that in no way gels with the contemporary interpretation of divinity. That for you the divine is linked inextricably with the land that you long for, and that outside that specific locale you may not be able to find god. Your discussions of god are visceral and I do not think it is merely coincidental that references to Alaska invariably arise in your discussions of need, satisfaction and belief.
This may seem to be a negative interpretation of what you consider your screwy belief system, but it's not, or at least it's not supposed to be. What I see in you is a passion for the land that does not make sense in the permanent transience of modern world where the signifier has detached itself permanently from that which it was meant to communicate and modify. You may think this too post-modern an interpretation, but in a world where sports teams change cities on a whim, and our food travels more than we do I think it both a salient and pointed example of why your god doesn't make sense in this christianity, and why the orthodox church, so stubbornly primitive, primal in its sense of christianity, appeals to you. The modern christian needs a god for all possible spaces, on which can be accessed from any hotel room or air port lobby all across the globe, like a gideon bible, on that makes sense in all cultures and time zones that can speak of all things at all times, so that our wisdom and our understanding through god can be immediately and omnisciently applicable no matter where we go. In short, if your god is not digital, then what good is it?
Your attraction to Jesus, although superficially linked to your ideas of religion, isn't the same as your discussion of god. In some ways, if god is your land unconscious, uncaring, immense, and immortal, then jesus is your society, articulate, revolutionary, religious, humble, intelligent, pious. They feed one another, but are separate entities that have distinct and dissimilar purposes, and while they overlap, never serve the same purposes.
If you continue this allegorical interpretation of belief Mary becomes the individual, completing the circle, answering yes to God, the land and giving birth to Christ the society (for where does society come from if not the individual?), and following the teachings of Christ, for while Mary is aware of her responsibility for bringing christ into the world, she also understands that she must subsume herself for the greater revelation and success of what she has created. It will be interesting to see how you reconcile this intimate and personal belief system that apparently has nothing to do with the contemporary incarnation of the divine, much more concerned with WJWD and cutting out their own market-share for equally violent video games.
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Date: 2005-05-04 12:35 am (UTC)This may seem to be a negative interpretation of what you consider your screwy belief system, but it's not, or at least it's not supposed to be. What I see in you is a passion for the land that does not make sense in the permanent transience of modern world where the signifier has detached itself permanently from that which it was meant to communicate and modify. You may think this too post-modern an interpretation, but in a world where sports teams change cities on a whim, and our food travels more than we do I think it both a salient and pointed example of why your god doesn't make sense in this christianity, and why the orthodox church, so stubbornly primitive, primal in its sense of christianity, appeals to you. The modern christian needs a god for all possible spaces, on which can be accessed from any hotel room or air port lobby all across the globe, like a gideon bible, on that makes sense in all cultures and time zones that can speak of all things at all times, so that our wisdom and our understanding through god can be immediately and omnisciently applicable no matter where we go. In short, if your god is not digital, then what good is it?
Your attraction to Jesus, although superficially linked to your ideas of religion, isn't the same as your discussion of god. In some ways, if god is your land unconscious, uncaring, immense, and immortal, then jesus is your society, articulate, revolutionary, religious, humble, intelligent, pious. They feed one another, but are separate entities that have distinct and dissimilar purposes, and while they overlap, never serve the same purposes.
If you continue this allegorical interpretation of belief Mary becomes the individual, completing the circle, answering yes to God, the land and giving birth to Christ the society (for where does society come from if not the individual?), and following the teachings of Christ, for while Mary is aware of her responsibility for bringing christ into the world, she also understands that she must subsume herself for the greater revelation and success of what she has created. It will be interesting to see how you reconcile this intimate and personal belief system that apparently has nothing to do with the contemporary incarnation of the divine, much more concerned with WJWD and cutting out their own market-share for equally violent video games.
A.
PS. It's nice to have my brain back.