I challenge myself to a duel
Oct. 12th, 2006 01:19 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
theatokosI've been thinking about singing lately. A lot. I sang a British folk tune at Feast Bay on Saturday. Not too shabby, except for the damn forgetting of lyrics. I was extra nervous due to many new faces. But I soldiered through by making up shit as I went a long. Then of course there's the whole talking about my process, which hasn't changed in years. Poor regular Feasters have to hear me talk - again- about how I studied opera once upon a time, was training to be a coloratura soprano, am dealing with my creative blocks, blah blah blah. I'm tired of repeating this. Who cares if I used to sing opera? I don't anymore.
However. I think about "formal" singing. I do miss it. But I'm also wary of the snobbery, my perfection issues and the anxiety they provoke, and all of the baggage from my singing past. I think the only thing that would get me back into private lessons or formal singing would be singing for a good - a really good - choir. Not some half-assed deal. So I called the grammy winning San Francisco Symphony Chorus to find out about auditions. If it's anytime before January it'll be a no-go, but anytime after that and it's on.
Anxiety and creative block be damned.
If only my whole apartment building didn't have to hear me practice.
Update: It is on, folks. The SF Symphony Chorus called me back. All 200 of them, at once. Auditions are in late spring. I now have something to work toward. I don't know how I'll integrate "formal" singing, but I'll find a way. It's time. (ohmygod, I'm really excited.)
However. I think about "formal" singing. I do miss it. But I'm also wary of the snobbery, my perfection issues and the anxiety they provoke, and all of the baggage from my singing past. I think the only thing that would get me back into private lessons or formal singing would be singing for a good - a really good - choir. Not some half-assed deal. So I called the grammy winning San Francisco Symphony Chorus to find out about auditions. If it's anytime before January it'll be a no-go, but anytime after that and it's on.
Anxiety and creative block be damned.
If only my whole apartment building didn't have to hear me practice.
Update: It is on, folks. The SF Symphony Chorus called me back. All 200 of them, at once. Auditions are in late spring. I now have something to work toward. I don't know how I'll integrate "formal" singing, but I'll find a way. It's time. (ohmygod, I'm really excited.)