Ups and Downs

[theatokos]

After being awake at 5:45, teaching two classes yesterday, and then spending the evening with alizarin71, hrafntinna, and Adam, I was bone achingly tired. I woke up this morning feeling sick - just wiped out. Not hungry. Achy. Unable to mentally function until close to noon. Ugh. The teaching and dinner were worth it though. Great food, great company, great conversation.

Work was hard. I barely had 5 minutes to compose myself. The only quiet time was first thing in the morning. Thankfully this was the time my 3 yr old niece in Anchorage decided to call me. Apparently she woke up and wanted to tell me that she missed me and loved me much. I thought I would die from cuteness! But then work took over. Prepping for our conference on Sunday. And..... having a pow-wow with the Executive and Founding Directors over this problematic coworker. I will not be present at her review and I don't know what they will decide. My gut tells me that she won't be let go. I just want there to be some resolution. The whole situation is emotionally taxing. However, I walked away from our meeting feeling heard, respected and valued. Moments like this make me want to stay with this organization forever. I feel very honored to work for such a healthy workplace, to have such supportive coworkers, and to be a part of something vibrant in the Jewish community here. I feel very lucky to be part of this rich community as a non-Jew.

To complicate my day even more, Adam and I left work early to go to a midwife appointment in SF. I was beat, but got so giddy afterwards. I haven't gained as much weight as I thought I had! I have gotten larger in the belly, but I've only gained 4 lbs this month, putting me at 27 lbs total. I thought it was closer to 30! I'm healthy, measuring about 26 weeks (I am actually 27weeks, 4 days), and little Bennett is kicking up a storm with a strong heartbeat. Adam was so excited to hear his heartbeat. I feel closer than ever to Adam. It's really beautiful.

The last upper of the day was getting my first installment of cloth diapering supplies. Who knew diapers could be so fun?! I got 8 brightly colored prefolds and some plain covers.

The last downer of the day is that the Golden State Warriors (the Bay Area basketball team) did not make into the play offs.


[OMG, I'm watching tv and I just saw an ad for Al Gore's new nonprofit, We, and the commercial features Rev. Al Sharpton AND Pat Robertson on a couch together cracking jokes about being left and right and how it's important to agree on caring for the planet. WHOA.]

Comments

[erinya.livejournal.com]

OMG, I'm watching tv and I just saw an ad for Al Gore's new nonprofit, We, and the commercial features Rev. Al Sharpton AND Pat Robertson on a couch together cracking jokes about being left and right and how it's important to agree on caring for the planet. WHOA.

Bizzaro World!

So are you going to have that baby shower or what?

[ewigweibliche.livejournal.com]

Yup! We picked June 7th, but don't know where it's going to be yet. It may end up at our apartment, but I'd rather it didn't. But we don't know where else to do it. I say a park, Adam really doesn't like that idea.

[msmidge.livejournal.com]

Despite the exhaustion, it sounds like things are going well. I'm really thankful I didn't have to be on a work schedule that required me to leave the house at specific times when I was pregnant...though doing exams and a dissertation prospectus was no picnic either. I guess there's no easy way to get through it, is there?

[ewigweibliche.livejournal.com]

I don't think there is. Maybe being a stay at home lady allows one to have a more flexible schedule (and mine is pretty flexible as it is), but then there is the isolation. I think my mental focus is coming back some, but I'm still physically compromised. I need a TON of rest!