I have a lot to learn

Class today got me fired up. It's days like this that restore my sanity. Yes, theology *is* important; yes, it *is* relevant. But, of course, that realization isn't so easy. Theology is only relevant insofar as it can be lived, in it's application to real people and lived experience. That's where the truly complicated part comes in. I have no desire to be a minister, but I feel the need to learn how to express theology in a pastoral role. And I really want to do it in a queer context. I'm thinking of taking my first pastoral/ministerial course this summer: Pastoring LGBT Families.

Interestingly, everytime I have a moment of clarity (as far as career or ambition or employment goes) I am caught thinking "how can I make this happen in Juneau?" My whole internal world centers around that place. Carrick suggested the AWARE shelter. Maybe I could educate clergy on how to approach LGBT issues with their congregations, or teachers in classrooms, or .....?? I don't know. If it's meant to be the opportunities will arise.

Sexual ethics

My sexual ethics are being challenged, both in and out of the classroom. Facing my own levels of insecurity, discomfort, and hypocrisy is not a pleasant activity. There are many models of incorporating queer issues into Christianity. I am discovering that what I can intellectually reason and what I live are not the same. I am also coming into contact with more people into the polyamory world, the bdsm world, and other various kink. What are my boundaries? What am I not okay with and what am I responding to just out of fear? I am mixing theory and practice. And it's scary shit.