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Sometimes I wonder
Mar. 20th, 2004 09:53 pmI wonder if this whole LJ thing isn't just a bit self-masturbatory (one of my favorite words). The reason I started this journal was to keep up with a certain individual. Now, that individual is uncertain as to whether or not I'm needed in said person's life.
Sometimes I wonder if I'm just crap at friendship, if I am incapable of maintaining close relationships for the long haul. Sometimes I wonder if I'm just a true solitary cloaked in an outgoing sociable community-loving body. I wonder if it's safe for people to love me, rely on me, or invest in me.
On a less depressing note, I wonder who left the toilet seat up this morning. My roommate is gone for the weekend. I left my door unlocked when I went up to the roof to stretch. When I came back I went to the bathroom and found the toilet seat up and one small item moved. Odd. No note, nothing missing. Just the toilet seat. I guess we all need a little mystery in our lives.
(Happy Vernal Equinox or Eostara)
Sometimes I wonder if I'm just crap at friendship, if I am incapable of maintaining close relationships for the long haul. Sometimes I wonder if I'm just a true solitary cloaked in an outgoing sociable community-loving body. I wonder if it's safe for people to love me, rely on me, or invest in me.
On a less depressing note, I wonder who left the toilet seat up this morning. My roommate is gone for the weekend. I left my door unlocked when I went up to the roof to stretch. When I came back I went to the bathroom and found the toilet seat up and one small item moved. Odd. No note, nothing missing. Just the toilet seat. I guess we all need a little mystery in our lives.
(Happy Vernal Equinox or Eostara)