(no subject)
Nov. 9th, 2008 03:37 pmI'm feeling very down today. Bennett has been on a a three week (2 weeks? time is losing its meaning) massive growth spurt, developmental and physical, and I am run down. So run down that I need to make a doctor's appointment to discuss why my hips to my feet continue to hurt so badly. I ache as badly as right before B was born. My knees will no longer let me bend down and push up with out holding on to something for support. I am also running a very low grade fever.
And, I'm getting depressed about housing prices in the Bay Area. Yesterday's tournament was in a wonderful middle class neighborhood, with yards and flowers and trees. A place where kids were playing outside and I could easily imagine kids trick-or-treating on their own in groups and no one would fear for their saftey. Yes, it was the burbs, but it beats our shitty street hands down.
I'm tired of being allergic to something. Tired of being uninspired to go for walks in my own neighborhood, tired of the transient nature of the area. So I looked at rent prices in other neighborhoods and parts of the Bay Area. Holy crap, I am not paying $1500 for a two bedroom apartment. We pay $1330 for a (very nice) "2 bedroom" (one bedroom with a dining room with doors) on a crappy street. I feel more than a little trapped here. I'm trying hard not to be a victim about this. But for today I am down about it.
To cheer me up, here are pictures that Adam's cousin took of B 2 weeks ago. He is noticably larger now, but I think these are gorgeous.





And, I'm getting depressed about housing prices in the Bay Area. Yesterday's tournament was in a wonderful middle class neighborhood, with yards and flowers and trees. A place where kids were playing outside and I could easily imagine kids trick-or-treating on their own in groups and no one would fear for their saftey. Yes, it was the burbs, but it beats our shitty street hands down.
I'm tired of being allergic to something. Tired of being uninspired to go for walks in my own neighborhood, tired of the transient nature of the area. So I looked at rent prices in other neighborhoods and parts of the Bay Area. Holy crap, I am not paying $1500 for a two bedroom apartment. We pay $1330 for a (very nice) "2 bedroom" (one bedroom with a dining room with doors) on a crappy street. I feel more than a little trapped here. I'm trying hard not to be a victim about this. But for today I am down about it.
To cheer me up, here are pictures that Adam's cousin took of B 2 weeks ago. He is noticably larger now, but I think these are gorgeous.
no subject
Date: 2008-11-10 12:36 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2008-11-10 12:37 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2008-11-10 12:54 am (UTC)It drives me nuts that modest houses most of the nice neighborhoods in the Bay Area are $600K and up. I just don't see how anyone can afford it.
no subject
Date: 2008-11-10 01:27 am (UTC)We don't own a car
I have issues with commuting, on principle
I don't actually want to be living here
no subject
Date: 2008-11-10 03:21 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2008-11-10 01:22 am (UTC)those pictures are gorgeous! i never realized b has blue eyes, much less just how blue they are.
no subject
Date: 2008-11-10 01:49 am (UTC)Another friend of mine is really bummed that she is in an apartment and not a house. She wants a house soooo bad. Her apartment is EXTREMELY nice, but it's an apartment without a yard. I felt the same way - plus my apartment was (literally) crack-whore territory. That's fun with a young child. Justin had a friend sleep over and for entertainment that evening they stood out on the balcony and watched the car burn in the apartment parking lot. The real excitement came when the tires popped. I bet that kid's parents were really impressed with us.
no subject
Date: 2008-11-10 10:33 am (UTC)He is just adorable! I totally love that last picture of him, he's just so happy!
no subject
Date: 2008-11-10 02:54 pm (UTC)Long-term pain can absolutely affect your overall mood and outlook. I hope the doctor can help.
no subject
Date: 2008-11-10 06:20 pm (UTC)I'll second what other commenters have said: long-term pain will mess with your head. I've had chronic pain of one sort or another since about sixth grade, and I can tell you it definitely changes things. Hang in there. If you want somebody to talk pain with, gimme a holler.
no subject
Date: 2008-11-10 08:41 pm (UTC)No, your rent doesn't make me feel better - it freaks me out even more! I don't see these apartments worth that much!! Combined Adam and I make less than $50k a year and these prices are killing us. Well, killing me. I need more trees. Or I will go insane.