On being a mama

[theatokos]

Being a mother is the most amazing thing I've ever done. Hands down. It is the most clarifying and creative thing I've ever undertaken. From conception up to this very moment, the mysteries of the universe unfold just a bit more for me than before I chose to become a mother.

I use the words choice and choose deliberately. For a woman being a mother is not inevitability. It is something I am grateful that I've been able to choose and I wish this choice, this ability to choose, for every woman. I wish that every woman had the knowledge, self possession, and support to say yes or no to motherhood. Motherhood is chaos. Motherhood is change. Motherhood is life and death in each moment. It is vibrancy and exhaustion, selfishness and selflessness. It is completely irrational and insane, and therefore it is the most powerful thing I've ever experienced. It is pure love - and that power is dangerous.

To my mama friends, happy mother's day! May your family bring you joy that surpasses understanding. To those ladies trying to become mothers, may the seed bloom when the time is right (as if there is ever a "right" time to embrace chaos!). To those who don't choose motherhood, may you support the mothers in your world.

To life!

Comments

[imp-of-satan.livejournal.com]

Happy Mother's Day to you too!

I agree, being a mom is the most amazing thing. I am feeling overwhelmed lately.

[ewigweibliche.livejournal.com]

What about it is overwhelming you? Today I am especially run down and tired. I feel like I can't keep up with B's happiness.

[imp-of-satan.livejournal.com]

I just need more me time. I'm a better mom when I feel personally fulfilled.

And I need to childproof but I don't have time because I'm always chasing my child!

[ewigweibliche.livejournal.com]

I struggle with my mornings these days. I am a morning person, but I used to have 1.5-2 hours by myself every morning to meditate, dawdle, do yoga, sip my tea slowly, etc. Now.... no chance. This is the hardest part for me.... these days. I'm sure the hardest part will change soon, as it always seems to.

I hope you can find some more you time. I miss you round these parts!