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[theatokos]

Some one explain to me why we're trying to move to Wales again. No, really. What the hell are we doing? Is it worth this head ache? This constant chaos, perpetual obstacles?

I am half a day away from throwing in the towel. It's just one thing after another.

Adam and I are supposed to go on a date tonight. We'd better go some where with good food and great wine. Because I really really need to get out and away.

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[seaivy.livejournal.com]

I took a seminar on setting goals.
This is some of what we were told
Questions to ask your self-
What is it I want in my life five years from now?
What is it I want in my life NOW?
What small step can I take to start moving toward that goal?
Can I set a time line of small steps?
What about my present life makes me happy?
How can I maximize that happiness?
The emphasis was to live in the present and move in small steps to a future goal.

Don't know if this is any help but reading you I thought I'd share it.
Good Luck

[ewigweibliche.livejournal.com]

I keep stubbing my toe on these small steps. But I was never told the path of this God would be easy. Hoo boy. I still think this is where we're supposed to be headed, but wow are we working for it.

[seaivy.livejournal.com]

I know you are eager to go and work on your studies but if all the small steps keep blocking your path maybe it's a clue that the time is not yet. Maybe there is something else you are to do or learn before you take the path to Wales.
Try to keep open to all possibilities.

[readthisandweep.livejournal.com]

We are, whether we like it or not, usually the architects of our own path. It's clear this adventure means a great deal to you, but I can't help feeling that if it were meant to be, the journey to making it happen would have been easier.

You sound so angry & frustrated ~ is it really supposed to be this relentlessly stressful? Surely not, if this trip is the right choice for you? In my experience, things usually are the way they're meant to be. Perhaps a time of cool reflection on why you want this trip so much; an honest appraisal of your motivation & a serious look at other options, would be useful?

I do wish you energy & success with your dream, if it really is what you're supposed to be doing; a cool head in this matter. Lampeter would surely benefit from your fire & obvious gifts, but at what cost to you & your family?

Blessings

[ewigweibliche.livejournal.com]

I do wonder. Adam and I were talking about this last night. I am usually very good at listening to myself and my motivations. I follow the still, small voice regularly enough that I think I can tell if something is a go or not.

But this experience feels entirely different. Saying yes to this move has caused huge, deep shifts within me. I think that the detail required for this is also far more challenging with a child - I'm just not my usual sharp self.

I felt very clearly that Lampeter was where we're headed, but I am open to it not being so. Something is coming, and it is good. So.... this could all be a sign that this is not the time or place. OR this could be "testing" - just how serious are we about our Yes and to the internal change we caused?

[seaivy.livejournal.com]

It could be that it was the change itself that was wanted. Lampeter was the agent of the change not the intended end. There may be something else that is the result of willing change.
Blessings

[jesamin.livejournal.com]

NY OR BUST!!!!!!!!!!!!

[ewigweibliche.livejournal.com]

HA! It's tempting. Maybe one of those small liberal arts colleges would like me to teach...

[erinya.livejournal.com]

Based on Adam's twitters, it sounds like good food at least :-)

Sending good energy for the move. I'm kind of belligerent myself today but maybe sending good energy out will bring some good in.

[ewigweibliche.livejournal.com]

Oh my goodnes. That restaurant was GREAT! Next time you're in SD eat at Cucina Urbana. Food here is cheaper than the Bay Area too! That lemon goat cheese ravioli was EXCELLENT.

[msmidge.livejournal.com]

OK, you were going to Wales so you could really dig into your dissertation research and being closer to your advisor is the only way to do it. Your advisor now doesn't know WTF is going to happen with her own life, so it's just as well that you're not just getting moved into a place you signed a one-year lease for in Wales when she's on her way to London or whatever town that was.

I think your reason for going makes sense...it's just that now the rug is maybe being pulled out from under it, but maybe not. Sucktastic.

[ewigweibliche.livejournal.com]

Just chaos chaos chaos.

But you know.... it's ok. I have no "career" plan for this theology degree. I feel no pressure to conform to anyone's time line; it's purely a labor of love for myself and Mary. It's crazy and weird. But an adventure.

You can see how my mood changes from day to day!

[ardaraith.livejournal.com]

I have missed everything. Are you going to grad school over there??

[ewigweibliche.livejournal.com]

Hi! So: I am enrolled in a PhD program in theology (specializing in the Virgin Mary) through the Univ of Wales, Lampeter (a tiny, but wonderful town in rural west Wales). I got in and immediately got pregnant. I've been in hiatus, but must return to school or forfeit my spot. In Jan my husband and I decided (/told) that we ought to move there. So we are. It's a very involved process and I'm exhausted. Hence the whining. We are scheduled to leave in 2 weeks. Eep!

[so-sporktastic.livejournal.com]

I really hope it works out. I hate that things are so shaky with this.

[ewigweibliche.livejournal.com]

You know, we've never been told no. Usually I'm FAR more organized (Adam's not very good with the details and timing, I have to say, but I usually am). However, I've gotten.... lazy since B. Some of this chaos could have been avoided if we'd done the visas earlier - or not started them at the same time we were moving. So this is our bad. But the whole Univ of Wales shake-up is disturbing. I still feel like we will end up in the UK (if only in Lampeter for a year or 6 months) and that I'll continue to study with my current adviser.

But yesterday, I needed to whine. Most days I feel stressed out from the stress (ha) and uncertainty, but generally feel optimistic and good. But whining lets off steam.

[(Anonymous)]

Now, you can come to Alaska! Have B grow up with his neices, and the magpie! Christmas dinners! Playtime! PFDs!

[ewigweibliche.livejournal.com]

Dood. If the visas fall through, Anchorage is a STRONG second.