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Sep. 22nd, 2004 05:02 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
theatokosRight now, I'm sick of this PhD nonesense. I don't care! I don't want to become ubergeek and kiss ass to know "those in the know" and publish just because it looks good on the resume! No no no!
But what the hell do I do around here if I DON'T go on to a PhD program? I don't want to move to New Jersey or LA or Atlanta. I also don't want to be making $8/hr at bookstore for the rest of my life.
There's always music. Or whoring.
I'm obsessed. I'm totally confused. I feel really lost. When I get this way I just fall back on doing my own thing. It's worked for me so far.
On a happier note, at dinner (no, the food was not happy) I articulated well my thoughts on Jesus and why I like him, his example of the fullness of divinity in humanity and the example that redemption is real and needed, but that we save ourselves and eachother. I've never understood the strange theological math (divine economy it's called) that gets worked out that God somehow needed to kill off a chunk of himself in human form to pay himself for the sin of humanity. Huh? That's a weird god who needs some psychotherapy.
But what the hell do I do around here if I DON'T go on to a PhD program? I don't want to move to New Jersey or LA or Atlanta. I also don't want to be making $8/hr at bookstore for the rest of my life.
There's always music. Or whoring.
I'm obsessed. I'm totally confused. I feel really lost. When I get this way I just fall back on doing my own thing. It's worked for me so far.
On a happier note, at dinner (no, the food was not happy) I articulated well my thoughts on Jesus and why I like him, his example of the fullness of divinity in humanity and the example that redemption is real and needed, but that we save ourselves and eachother. I've never understood the strange theological math (divine economy it's called) that gets worked out that God somehow needed to kill off a chunk of himself in human form to pay himself for the sin of humanity. Huh? That's a weird god who needs some psychotherapy.