I always want to call. About three times a month exactly? I dissapeared basically because things became very bad with my family. I saw no one for months on end. The more I don't see someone the more I become reclusive. It's not a very good excuse I guess I just became extremely depressed. I figured that after so long it would be unwelcome, but I thought also it might not be. The fact that I am basically unable to even act upon wanting to call makes me feel even worse. Things are finally nearing and I'm starting to actually figure things out.
I dream about Adam though randomly it's awful. I always dream I called him and told him that I miss you both and that I'm doing better. I really do miss you both and things are (semi) better. I made them better and I think things are definitely different this time around for me.
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branchandroot
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Date: 2005-03-24 10:29 pm (UTC)I dream about Adam though randomly it's awful. I always dream I called him and told him that I miss you both and that I'm doing better. I really do miss you both and things are (semi) better. I made them better and I think things are definitely different this time around for me.