i can so relate to what you write here. i have tried lately to live and believe exclusively "church-wise", or how can i say it, because making my own way and sorting through beliefs and practices on my own tends to get hard. it is like with my native american heritage: i don't fit in the traditional world, neither do i completely fit in the modern world. likewise, i don't fit in within christianity, but not completely at home in the pagan world either. maybe i am a reclaiming/dianic with cherokee roots and a christian touch? but how absurd does that sound! i tried some christian wicca/witch groups, but reading "in the name of our lord jesus christ, i invoke the pentacle of power" sounds somewhat "awkward" to me, if it doesn't make me cringe out right. gnosticism isn't really an option either because of spirit-matter dualism and the entirely negative view of creation. so here i am again, with my altar that has Sophia, Sekhmet and Bast on it, having rublev's icon of the holy trinity hanging above it, and my bible and various theology books next to it. guess i'll have to find my way in between starhawk and rosemary r-r. eek, help!
on another note, when i was in CA, i wanted desperately to get a statue of the virgin of guadeloupe, but didn't get around to it unfortunately. of the the faces of mary, that one is special to me. made me think of you! have a great day! and just don't listen to those twins... being moew concerned with present-day life is healthier than looking what's happening in the next (or previous, in some cases) life... :-)
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Date: 2005-05-04 01:09 am (UTC)i have tried lately to live and believe exclusively "church-wise", or how can i say it, because making my own way and sorting through beliefs and practices on my own tends to get hard. it is like with my native american heritage: i don't fit in the traditional world, neither do i completely fit in the modern world. likewise, i don't fit in within christianity, but not completely at home in the pagan world either. maybe i am a reclaiming/dianic with cherokee roots and a christian touch? but how absurd does that sound! i tried some christian wicca/witch groups, but reading "in the name of our lord jesus christ, i invoke the pentacle of power" sounds somewhat "awkward" to me, if it doesn't make me cringe out right. gnosticism isn't really an option either because of spirit-matter dualism and the entirely negative view of creation.
so here i am again, with my altar that has Sophia, Sekhmet and Bast on it, having rublev's icon of the holy trinity hanging above it, and my bible and various theology books next to it. guess i'll have to find my way in between starhawk and rosemary r-r.
eek, help!
on another note, when i was in CA, i wanted desperately to get a statue of the virgin of guadeloupe, but didn't get around to it unfortunately. of the the faces of mary, that one is special to me.
made me think of you! have a great day! and just don't listen to those twins...
being moew concerned with present-day life is healthier than looking what's happening in the next (or previous, in some cases) life...
:-)