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Dec. 18th, 2006 10:59 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
theatokosI am so annoyed this morning I can barely function like an adult. I am choking on a temper tantrum lodged somewhere in my core. I don't know what has pissed me off so much. I could feel it growing all weekend. Even though I think I've been taking care of myself - having fun, eating enough but not too much, getting lots of sleep, doing yoga - I just feel completely out-of-whack. This morning I reading emails and newsletters I kept thinking "Go away. Don't tell me what to do." Whoa. And the bookkeeper came who shares my office and I thought "Don't speak, don't open your mouth." Big whoa. I'm like a four year old who needs a nap. I want to kick things and whine and screw up my face and say "I hate you!" But, I can't figure out what I'm so mad about.
Several events over the weekend certainly didn't help. I am currently in charge of the emergency phone for our building since the normal folk are all going out of town. Rarely should it go off and when it does it's usually just a spider crawling across the motion sensor. If no doors have been opened, don't dispatch the police, so said Upstairs Executive Director. Less than 12 hours after getting this phone it wakes me at 5.30 Saturday morning. I go through the steps and conclude that it's a bug. Nope. Sunday morning I get a call from the maintenance guy telling me that one of our office windows has been smashed in. Nothing I can do about it now. He boards it up and I say I'll take care of it Monday morning (which I have). That afternoon I am at a holiday party and don't hear the phone ring, missing a call from the security people. Since I don't pick up they dispatch the police. But we have classes running in the building! What's going on? Some moron from upstairs set the alarm without checking to see if anyone was downstairs. When the teacher of the classes (our exec. director) got up from his chair in his office, he set off the alarm. So annoying! I do not want this responsibility anymore.
Later on Sunday evening - in happier news, mostly- I was dressed up and went to the city with Adam and the Future Governor of Alaska. We went to Cafe Meuse, a wine bar where another long time friend from Alaska is working. It was great - really worth going to again. Tasty bistro food, excellent wines, nice atmosphere, spacious but still intimate, and everything was surprisingly reasonably priced! Towards the end of the evening an attractive, friendly, nice woman joined us at the bar. She had been in earlier with her boyfriend. Our friend at the cafe said the boyfriend was hitting on her when the woman was in the bathroom. Boo. The woman had left the dinner party she was at because the boyfriend hadn't introduced her and I swear she said he'd told her to shut up and eat when she was asking what the dinner was. She was sad and her man sounded like a real jerk. He came to get her and said she could sleep in the city, leave with him or catch a ride with her new friends. All very sarcastic. He may have said something else too that I missed. Adam, sitting next to the woman, turned to the man and said "Could you be anymore of an asshole?" The man said something about how the woman had embarrassed him at dinner and Adam could take her home with him if was so interested in her. Like she's his child! Or property! More words were exchanged. I'm sure Adam could have chosen less confrontational words, but really I'm so proud of him for saying something. The guy was a jerk and needs to know that it's not okay to treat anyone like that. Plus, the girl also needs to know that not all men are jerks and other people also see the crappy treatment she's getting, it's not all in her head. Manipulative people like to make sure that victims think it's all in their heads. Bleh. The woman seemed very cool and interesting, I hope she's okay.
Several events over the weekend certainly didn't help. I am currently in charge of the emergency phone for our building since the normal folk are all going out of town. Rarely should it go off and when it does it's usually just a spider crawling across the motion sensor. If no doors have been opened, don't dispatch the police, so said Upstairs Executive Director. Less than 12 hours after getting this phone it wakes me at 5.30 Saturday morning. I go through the steps and conclude that it's a bug. Nope. Sunday morning I get a call from the maintenance guy telling me that one of our office windows has been smashed in. Nothing I can do about it now. He boards it up and I say I'll take care of it Monday morning (which I have). That afternoon I am at a holiday party and don't hear the phone ring, missing a call from the security people. Since I don't pick up they dispatch the police. But we have classes running in the building! What's going on? Some moron from upstairs set the alarm without checking to see if anyone was downstairs. When the teacher of the classes (our exec. director) got up from his chair in his office, he set off the alarm. So annoying! I do not want this responsibility anymore.
Later on Sunday evening - in happier news, mostly- I was dressed up and went to the city with Adam and the Future Governor of Alaska. We went to Cafe Meuse, a wine bar where another long time friend from Alaska is working. It was great - really worth going to again. Tasty bistro food, excellent wines, nice atmosphere, spacious but still intimate, and everything was surprisingly reasonably priced! Towards the end of the evening an attractive, friendly, nice woman joined us at the bar. She had been in earlier with her boyfriend. Our friend at the cafe said the boyfriend was hitting on her when the woman was in the bathroom. Boo. The woman had left the dinner party she was at because the boyfriend hadn't introduced her and I swear she said he'd told her to shut up and eat when she was asking what the dinner was. She was sad and her man sounded like a real jerk. He came to get her and said she could sleep in the city, leave with him or catch a ride with her new friends. All very sarcastic. He may have said something else too that I missed. Adam, sitting next to the woman, turned to the man and said "Could you be anymore of an asshole?" The man said something about how the woman had embarrassed him at dinner and Adam could take her home with him if was so interested in her. Like she's his child! Or property! More words were exchanged. I'm sure Adam could have chosen less confrontational words, but really I'm so proud of him for saying something. The guy was a jerk and needs to know that it's not okay to treat anyone like that. Plus, the girl also needs to know that not all men are jerks and other people also see the crappy treatment she's getting, it's not all in her head. Manipulative people like to make sure that victims think it's all in their heads. Bleh. The woman seemed very cool and interesting, I hope she's okay.
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Date: 2006-12-18 10:44 pm (UTC)i've been there before and it's such a disconcerting place. i often feel that i would be ok with being so angry, if only i had a justifiable reason and it's the lack of a reason that really gets to me. i'm so sorry that you've been feeling grrrrr.
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Date: 2006-12-19 03:52 am (UTC)also, big props to adam. in a big way.