Is it obvious I never did the 20-something-backpack-around-Europe thing?

[theatokos]

I am really stressed out about this upcoming trip. Every time I start to go into detail about why I end up erasing my words. I'm not organized and it's freaking me out. I organize. That's what I do best. It's what I get paid for. And I have no connecting train, plane or bus tickets. The town I am going to is so small it's not even in my guide book. Most of the info for places to stay don't have websites. I am don't know where to go after my few days in Lampeter. I'd like to spend some time by myself outdoors, but what to pick?? Where to stay? Guide books aren't actually all that helpful.

And then there's going to Edinburgh. Does Emily have housing yet? I don't even know. I'm thinking of trying couchsurfing.com in case Em's in a bind.

Maybe I should just stay an extra day in Lampeter and skip the rest of Wales and then just go straight to Edinburgh? There's an easy cheap flight there from Bristol, so that's nice. I don't really care to go to Cardiff, since I'm in a big city all the time. I was looking forward to the rural life for a change.

I suppose I should just wing it. It'll be good for me. But as each day passes I get a little more freaked out. I just don't want to need a vacation from my vacation when I get back you know? This fall is so busy and my summer wasn't relaxing in the slightest.

I feel like I'm being a big baby.

Comments

[ginger-root.livejournal.com]

hey darlin'. as someone who did do the twenty-something-backpack-around-europe thing, i just want to tell you that i'm SO not the type of person to "wing it," but winged my way around europe, and i'm SO happy i did it that way instead of deciding everything before leaving because things ALWAYS were changing. and there are ALWAYS tons of people around who can help you out, whether it's just the dude at the hotel or the lady at the local tourist bureau (which is TOTALLY helpful, always). seriously, it'll take you MAYBE an hour to get all of the arrangements together for whatever you need to do. easy-peasy-lemon-squeezy. however, i TOTALLY know that that's a very scary thing to do. whatever you choose, you're going to have a great trip. just keep grinning and remembering that you're discovering things left and right, finding new places, seeing new things, and rediscovering yourself. that's what travel is all about, m'dear, as you already know i'm sure. :)

Neuroses on display

[ewigweibliche.livejournal.com]

Ah thanks for this, Miss Bliss! In theory, I totally know that I'll be fine. I've travelled enough, I am organized enough, I'm smart and friendly enough to get around. But, I think this where my job has not been good for me: it's really exacerbating the planning part of me. I freak now over the smallest things.

Also, I've been stressed and planning a LOT this year. The wedding was one of those "plan, but not too much, and go with the flow because things change" kinds of experiences and holy jesus lord, that was not the best of experiences for me. Great wedding, beautiful day, but not fun in that look-back-and-smile reminiscing. I just don't want another trip to be like that, one that's supposed to be about me and fun and getting some vacation to turn out to be another stressful adventure.

And now I've talked myself back into anxiety.

But it will all work out, this I do know. And I will calm down, too.

Re: Neuroses on display

[ginger-root.livejournal.com]

oh yes, i understand everything you're saying. :)
you're going to do just great. i can't wait to hear about all of the amazingness. good luck, poppet. much love. bon voyage!