Pregnancy is my kryptonite

[theatokos]

I am exhausted in brand new ways. I worked two full days this week - very slow days even! - and I could barely function at work this morning. I don't think I'm that busy, it's not like a do many things on any given day.... Like the alcoholic in denial: "It's not that I get drunk! It's just that I like to drink every single day." And now I have something Other and yet entirely me to slow me down.

Even though today is already supposed to be a half day for me, I came home early. I walked home for the exercise and then made burritos. I ate two enormous burritos. Who knew that much food could fit inside of me?! And I was only very full, not even uncomfortably so. It's kind of exciting. All those times I was full up but wished my stomach was bigger so I could eat more..... it's finally come true! After burritos came a two hour nap. Both the cats curled up on me and we slept.

Now to prepare myself for the glories of the opera.


(PS, I don't normally filter my posts, but I'll obviously be posting about being pregnant. If the thought of this makes you bored beyond tears, let me know and I might consider making a filter.)

Comments

[chiv.livejournal.com]

How much of the exhaustion and appetite is psychological?
You found out how many days ago? 3? 4?
How tired were you feeling just before you found out, what about your appetite?
I'm just wondering if it is due to being pregnant and the exponential demand on your body for food and rest, or if there's a little part of your brain, or possibly Jerry mouse in a devil costume sitting on your shoulder, egging you on to fulfil the stereotype. "go on... eat two whole burrito's, you're pregnant, make the most of it etc. etc."

as for the p.s.: I consider posts like this, umm what's the best way to put this? "Early warning" I suppose. I want to know what to expect a couple of years down the line. As insensitive and academic as that may sound. I can't say I'll have anything useful to contribute though.

[ewigweibliche.livejournal.com]

I think you raise some good questions. I *do* have a tendency to be chronically tired due to my big ol' brain and jam packed doing. But I will say that I was unusually tired the last two weeks. And it's been just a week since since we found out. I've been reading that the most tired parts occur now, in the first trimester, when the most exponential growth and actual forming of bones and organs occurs. I'm not supposed to gain too much weight this trimester, that normally happens in the middle trimester. However, my appetite has just been... different. I do like to eat!

[mz-seshet.livejournal.com]

My doctor told me in regards to the weight gain that I'd better slow down - I was an early gainer, and I ate a lot to keep from throwing up early on. I ignored him. I think I weighed 170 or 175 by the time I went into labor - but look at me now! Nothing that nursing and exercise couldn't take care of. Do you know how many calories nursing burns? YEE HAW!

The point really is: that you know best about you, and it may be physical or pyschological or both, but really its all the same! Hey! Its kinda like Feri!

And if you're gonna filter - I want in!

[ewigweibliche.livejournal.com]

Wow, you totally give me hope. Neither my mother nor my sister were able to lose their baby weight easily or completely, but I am built very differently then they are, and I like to exercise. Thankfully, I haven't had morning sickness, or sickness of any kind - my mother and sister didn't either. But if I don't eat a little something every so many hours I get a little queasy. So, I'm just following the body's orders!

[qibitum.livejournal.com]

when the most exponential growth and actual forming of bones and organs occurs

Not to mention the placenta! Your body is working hard. I also remember the 1st trimester being difficult because I was so exhausted, but not at all showing yet. So no one thinks to give you their seat on the bart, or otherwise be accomodating.

Fwiw, I also ate a *ton* those first phew months, because I felt like total crap if I didn't--way beyond any hunger I'd known before. I was a whoping 190 by the time Spencer came out, but I'm already back down to 150 w/just 20 or so more to go before I'm back down to where I started. So, yeah, one of the many benefits of breastfeeding. Anyhow, listen to your body--you're telling yourself what you need.

[qibitum.livejournal.com]

Oops, I want to add something about my pregnancy weight gain--"whoping" by what's typical only for myself & the size at which body seems to hang out most comfortably and healthfully. To each his/her/hir own, of course!

[ewigweibliche.livejournal.com]

I assumed you meant nothing but! Knowing what you looked like before pregnancy and during pregnancy, I never would have guessed you could be or were 190lbs. Holy cow!

This is already challenging some deep seated body image stuff. I don't own a scale or weigh myself regularly, but I've been between 115 and 120 for over a decade and going off the pill has caused immediate weight gain (rather going on it....), despite my boot camp and yoga and biking. So I just gotta roll with it.

And wow, the desire to be still and not do is fierce. I hope I can remember some of this for after I've birthed the lil' pea.

[goddessofmercy.livejournal.com]

obviously i have no experiences to draw on as far as your exhaustion is concerned. i'm just glad you seem to be listening to the needs of your body. and if you do wind up filtering all this stuff, which i would completely understand, i would like to be on the filter please.

[ewigweibliche.livejournal.com]

I got your card today! Whee! Thank you. I am really pleased that Adam and I have so many multi-faceted creative supportive people in our lives. I suppose you could bring me cheeseburgers from time to time, but the drive from LA would be a bitch.

[goddessofmercy.livejournal.com]

yeah, but in n' out burgers might be worth it.*g*