General update

[theatokos]

*We got a new bed. WE GOT A NEW BED!! I am so excited about this, can you tell? It's a queen sized faux temperpedic with a real wooden bed frame. I pray that this improves my sleeping.

*Adam is awesome.

*I think I look a little bit like an alien when I see myself in mirrors.

*This next week is freakishly busy. Loads of work stuff. Mostly prepping for another conference next Sunday in Palo Alto. But it's also time to deal with a coworker that's sucking the joy out of working at my nonprofit. It's time for her 6 month review and I have proposed we fire her. I will spend tomorrow trying to cover our asses if that's the case, since this person is also a lawyer. And I am not.

*This is also the week that I am (finally) going into my friend's theology classroom in an all boys Catholic high school and talking about social justice issues around abortion. I'll let you all know how it goes!

*hraffntina is coming to the area oh-so-briefly, but I am so happy at the prospect of seeing her for however short a time.

*I've been struggling with a lot of anxiety and worry this week, and feelings of failure.

*Tonight, Adam and I are going to discuss throwing ourselves a baby shower.

*I ordered the first few things for cloth diapering yesterday. How is it possible to be so excited about purchasing diapers?

Comments

[said-by-me.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry you are having depressing feelings. Is there anything I can do to help with some of the fears?

[ewigweibliche.livejournal.com]

Thank you. It's just me working through anxiety. I have anxiety issues in general, mostly under control these days. Pregnancy has made me emotional in general and I do get overwhelmed some days - but it's not necessarily about the baby, more like how can I do all the things I want to do AND have a kid? Or even, how can I honor my commitments AND be pregnant? I am pretty ambitious and like to Do things. I mean, I'm trying to figure out how to maintain my personal spiritual practice, be domestic, work part time, work on a PhD (now part time), get certified as a yoga instructor, sing semi-professionally, and be a mom. Hahahahahaha.

I still maintain that it is all possible. Although, if anything goes I want it to be the job!

[miss-december.livejournal.com]

Oooh, what did you order?

[ewigweibliche.livejournal.com]

Well, there's not much there to order! But I just wanted to get a start. I bought some of the infant prefolds, in the bright springy colors, and a couple of imse vimse coves (mostly to really see how these things work!).

I am going to ask for gift certificates to goodmamas for our shower. That way when they get stocked I can go crazy! I'm really excited about goodmamas stuff - it's cute, it's one size, all the reviews rave about them.... Have you gotten items from them? What do you think?

[miss-december.livejournal.com]

I got my first in the mail last week, bought from a mama who had to sell it due to a fussy husband. It's great! So soft and cuddly, but then again, I have nothing to compare it to, seeing how it's my very first cloth diaper.

Great idea for the shower though, that way you can get what you really want. Actually, I'm in the same boat, my dad just bought me enough gift certificates for a wish box when they're back in stock! Now we both just have to be patient until she's up and running again.

[norasma.livejournal.com]

Check out the newest issue of Mothering Magazine, It has the total low down on cloth diapering, really helpful! I can understand wondering how to be a mum and all the other stuff too, I felt that way when I pregnant with Nora at 21, and now pregnant with Desi, and thinking about Grad school I still feel scared, but a little more confident that there is a point when you find the balance. Being mama and person become one, and it's all possible, one thing feeds the other. I'm more confident and strong as a mother, a better student, a better person which make me a better mother etc...
Catholic school Boys and social justice/abortion, that should be interesting, I soooo want to know how that goes!

[ewigweibliche.livejournal.com]

Thanks for the heads up about the magazine! I'll check it out.

I've really bitten off a bit more than I can chew. I put a lot of great things into motion - and then found out I was pregnant. I do know that eventually I'll find balance, but for the time being the adjustment in my physical and mental abilities is very difficult to make. There are loads of women who do grad school either pregnant or as a mom. I think certain departments and fields make it more difficult than it needs to be, but it IS doable.

I'll definitely post about how Wed goes!

[goddessofmercy.livejournal.com]

congrats on the new bed, i hope it helps your sleep and fatigue. my mom used cloth diapers, it's lovely to hear that you are so excited about the tangibility of this new step. what made you decide on cloth diapers?

[ewigweibliche.livejournal.com]

I hadn't even thought about cloth diapering until I read about it on LJ. It seemed outmoded and impractical, what with pins and leaking and all.... except that's not how it is anymore! There's this whole world of cloth diapers that are super durable, really cute and very easy to use! Some people claim that it's completely a better environmental choice - and in general yes, but not necessarily (for example, if you live in a drought stricken area, the extra water needed for all that washing and soaking might not balance out the extra waste in a landfill). But I like that I won't have to purchase extra diapers for future kids (HUGE money saver)- and by buying all one size diapers, I can have a relatively small stash, consuming even less. PLUS, instead of my money going to petrochemical companies it's going to independent entrepreneurs, mainly work at home moms. This last point makes me extra happy.

And did I mention, cloth diapers are cute?

[(Anonymous)]

I want to hear how things went at work, and can't wait to hear about the baby shower plans!

I think you're great.

[ewigweibliche.livejournal.com]

Is this Twig or Sis?

Work.... UGH. I want to fire this woman. But I am starting to get the strong feeling that the ED wants to offer her feedback and hope she'll change. The issues with her are not performance based, mainly; they are character issues, something that's very hard to adjust. How do you tell someone, someone who already doesn't take criticism well and wants to be important, that they can't pull rank, must treat everyone as equals, shouldn't lie (I don't trust her and even if she says she won't suggest backhanded dealings, will she not do them??), etc.

If she stays I feel that the remaining three of us will all be gone with in a year.