Nerves

[theatokos]

I stayed home today. For several reasons. One is I work part time so I can take which ever two days off I need to. Another reason is that I have pulled a muscle in my side/stomach area which is incredibly painful. Sitting all day is just fine, but the jiggling of the muscles when I walk or stand for very long makes the pain really bad. I think this occurred the other night while getting out of bed. This belly and lack of ab control makes it difficult to get out of bed 4 times during the night. Or at all, really.

The last reason is that today was that coworker's review. I was not part of the formal review. A little birdy told me that the meeting was three hours long. I realize that I'm so stressed out about this that I've made myself slightly nauseated. My pulse is racing a bit, I'm having a bit of a hard time focusing. Sort of the tiniest beginning of an anxiety attack. Did she talk her way into staying? Would she really want to?

I have spent my day off on line ALL DAY. I caught up on a week's worth of email and I bought some maternity clothes. It's getting too hot for my jeans. I'm tired of wearing jeans and tshirts to the office. Time to upgrade. But why, oh why, are maternity clothes either really frikkin' expensive or so cheaply constructed? Most of what was out there did not scream out "Wear me!" I dropped a pretty penny. But I figure that, like last time, I'll have to send most of it back because it won't fit right. I bought another belly band/huggalug. I love my blue one. I bought a black skirt with a sparkly skull and cross bones on it (I just couldn't find a sundress that I wanted to wear!). I bought a light weight sweater and a pair of capris from Old Navy and three super gorgeous tops from Isabella Oliver. Beautiful clothing, but none of the pants are in short inseams and everything is priced at $120. I don't get it.

Maybe I feel so bad because I've mainly eaten strawberries, chocolate, tea, and ice cream today. Time for some real food and some pleasant distraction.

Comments

[msmidge.livejournal.com]

If I have another baby, I am definitely getting some maternity clothes that aren't stupid. Last time I suffered through with what I could find in thrift shops, and while I didn't go naked, I never felt well-dressed either. There are so many other things to suffer through with pregnancy, it's totally not worth it to skimp on nice clothes if you can afford it. So YOU ARE RIGHT. :)

[ewigweibliche.livejournal.com]

It is nice to have new things, but on the other hand, it's also nice to not have so many options! I know that I have one of two pairs of pants to wear. Makes getting dressed in the morning pretty simple.

[teamrose.livejournal.com]

I've realized there is much less strain when I try to roll out of bed, rather than actually sit up and get out of bed standing. ;x I feel like quite the fatty but goodness it is so comfortable.

Somedays I want to stay online all day but my attention span is shrinking by the day, sadly. I bought a lot of maternity clothes in the beginning, but now I would much rather just go naked (ahhh to bad I don't live on my own anymore..) and I'm guessing my best bet will be to go and get some light weight dresses. It is true how maternity clothes are so expensive; it's wonkers. And the target made maternity clothes tend to also be a bit cheaply made and it's ridiculous...IMO.

strawberries and tea <3 shall we have a tea party? ;D

[ewigweibliche.livejournal.com]

I know about Target. Their regular clothes are so much nicer! I have a couple of shirts that I purchased in extra large junior sizes that are still working, but they're fun and not really "grown up" - like I can't wear them to board meetings or anything. Thank goodness our work place is generally casual or I'd be screwed.

Any word on your possible visit?

[teamrose.livejournal.com]

Yeah target has some nice designers that they've been collaborating with, however the seem to be slipping in the maternity section. Heh.

I'm not sure, right now we are trying to come to an agreement. I believe it is June 16th and the army gives them two weeks off, but I'm worried I will be so far into my pregnancy that I could possibly go into labor, I'd rather come earlier. I'd really like to take a trip before baby gets here....grrr!

[miss-december.livejournal.com]

I adore Isabella Oliver. Which tops did you get?

[ewigweibliche.livejournal.com]

Oh their stuff all looks so nice! It was hard to choose, but the prices certainly reigned me in. I got the cap sleeve wrap in blue, the top with the keyhole and fluttery sleeves in charcoal, and the bandeau halter in black. I really wanted to order some of their bottoms, but I am short legged and paying for the hemming on top of the prices.... couldn't bring myself to do it.

I'm pretty excited to get them.

[snowcalla.livejournal.com]

Stress from work, especially when it involes HR stuff, makes me feel ill too.

[ewigweibliche.livejournal.com]

It's now morning time and I've been dreaming about it all night long. Up early because of it. Bleh. I'm trying to be all zen and nonattached to outcome, but..... my goodness I want her gone. I fear that the bosses, who are softies, will have let her stay and it's the rest of us who will have to deal with the fall out. And me who - regardless of outcome - has to reorder the staffing. Blargh.

[snowcalla.livejournal.com]

I have an HR problem that has me in tears of anger and frustration.

One of my reps fucks her clients and other reps clients. I really don't think she does it to get a sale, but it looks bad. And she gets drunk at industry events and makes out with people, flashes her boos, etc. She's married and everyone knows it. Managers at our clients companies have talked to me manager to manager about her behavior and the talk it is generating. My other reps have come to me to complain that now customers expect them to fuck for the contract since "we are that way". It's a horrible, dangerous, shitty situation.

So why isn't she fired? I can't even warn her about her behavior because our owner sees nothing wrong about it and it's just my Christian Morality Police mentality that is the problem.

I just want to scream.

[ewigweibliche.livejournal.com]

Oh my god, that is horrible. Your "Christian morality police" - ha! The owner doesn't see the lack of professionalism in this or that bad precedent and image being set for the company? If you are an at-will employment state, you can most definitely fire her. I certainly think that if she is flashing her boobs at industry events, while on the company's dime, she could be fired for sexual misconduct.

...but if the owner thinks it's cool, then I guess that's the kind of company the owner wants to have. Maybe you can talk to the lady in question anyway and let her know that word is getting around and it's not pretty.

Man that really sucks. One more Buzzard for the stupid people.

[fictional-emily.livejournal.com]

Hey, there's a vintage shop down on San Pablo that has a wee maternity section (Icon, it be called). If you ever want to go... i'm always up for vintage.