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[theatokos]

Today was a better day than I expected. Yesterday was a hard me day. I'm not doing quite so well as I thought I was. Adam always notices this much earlier than I do. But today hasn't ended up so great. I experienced my first Judgemental Mommy moment (me being judgmental against another mother!) and my first Jealous Mommy moment (me being jealous of another mother!). I'm dealing with that tonight. It's uncomfortable.

But Adam has B sleeping in a sling and they're doing diaper laundry. I am roasting a chicken right now, drinking a glass of claret, and I am about to go make mashed potatoes and peas. It's a ridiculous meal to be eating on a 90 degree day, but there it is.

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[bloodfever.livejournal.com]

If you have made it to 12w and are only just having jealous/judgement moments you are doing really well!!

I have those all the time - of mothers w/ girls, mothers w/ babies who sleep through, mothers who bf without even thinking about it, mothers who have partners who dont need constant instruction on how to look after baby, etc etc etc.

I find Im less judgemental of mothers now than when I was pregnant, but I still have a few hot button issues that open the judgement gates.

[ewigweibliche.livejournal.com]

Well, I guess I've had envious moments, but for me envy and jealousy are very different. I was envious of people who didn't have premies! Babies who were fat and gaining 2 lbs in a week and such. But today was really a *gasp!* moment. More like, instead "wow, that's something I'd like and great for her" it was "oh my god, no way, I feel so bad about myself, how dare she." Yuck.

[bloodfever.livejournal.com]

Ahhh I see. Well the bf thing does make me feel that way, but the others are more envy, thats true.

Yuck is the word, I hate that feeling. Whether it's attached to motherhood or anything else.

[miss-malloreee.livejournal.com]

I've been having a rough couple days as well. I'm assuming it's PMS, which is something I never really had pre-baby. My body is all thrown off by pregnancy & birth.

We have friends who had a baby 2 months before us & she is such a competetive mother that I've decided that it's best for me to just not be around her right now.

I constantly compare Anna to their daughter & then I have to take a step back & remember that Anna is 2 months behind her, she's not supposed to be all smiles yet.

Motherhood is such a hard thing. One day your up, the next your down.

[ewigweibliche.livejournal.com]

Yeah, I had to remind myself that motherhood (and life) is not competitive sport. No one wins a trophy here!

[keypike.livejournal.com]

Forgive yourself for the judgement and envy and know that every mother has those moments.

It's been a dismal 2 days in Toronto (rainy and grey)- your meal sounds perfect to me!