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[theatokos]

Today was a better day than I expected. Yesterday was a hard me day. I'm not doing quite so well as I thought I was. Adam always notices this much earlier than I do. But today hasn't ended up so great. I experienced my first Judgemental Mommy moment (me being judgmental against another mother!) and my first Jealous Mommy moment (me being jealous of another mother!). I'm dealing with that tonight. It's uncomfortable.

But Adam has B sleeping in a sling and they're doing diaper laundry. I am roasting a chicken right now, drinking a glass of claret, and I am about to go make mashed potatoes and peas. It's a ridiculous meal to be eating on a 90 degree day, but there it is.

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[bloodfever.livejournal.com]

If you have made it to 12w and are only just having jealous/judgement moments you are doing really well!!

I have those all the time - of mothers w/ girls, mothers w/ babies who sleep through, mothers who bf without even thinking about it, mothers who have partners who dont need constant instruction on how to look after baby, etc etc etc.

I find Im less judgemental of mothers now than when I was pregnant, but I still have a few hot button issues that open the judgement gates.

[ewigweibliche.livejournal.com]

Well, I guess I've had envious moments, but for me envy and jealousy are very different. I was envious of people who didn't have premies! Babies who were fat and gaining 2 lbs in a week and such. But today was really a *gasp!* moment. More like, instead "wow, that's something I'd like and great for her" it was "oh my god, no way, I feel so bad about myself, how dare she." Yuck.

[bloodfever.livejournal.com]

Ahhh I see. Well the bf thing does make me feel that way, but the others are more envy, thats true.

Yuck is the word, I hate that feeling. Whether it's attached to motherhood or anything else.