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[theatokos]

I'm struggling a little. I went for a walk with B in a wrap and it didn't lift my spirits liked I'd hoped. Of course, I was over dressed for the temperature + baby + wrap. I'm just T.I.R.E.D. And I am always, with out fail, homesick over the 3rd and 4th of July. As much as it is a drunken crazy fest in Juneau, it's still like the most major holiday, with reunions and all kinds of wonderful hometown events. I miss it. I've also been worried about B's (lack of) weight gain, even though he seems to be thriving. I'm just adjusting in general still, but ..... some days are easier than others.

So, gratitude. Sometimes when I'm a little down it's actually easier to see what I'm grateful for. I'm not too happy to forget to notice, nor so bummed out that I'm wallowing in woe-is-me.

I am grateful for:
*hot cocoa
*abundant clean water
*a partner who loves being a father, wearing his son in a sling and gives me encouragement, even thanking me for breast feeding
*my son - who is healthy, though tiny, and seems to be developing right on schedule
*my upcoming midwife appointment
*breast feeding support expected_chaos
*my own health
*the ability to sustain life
*the experience and diversity of the mamas I've come to know on LJ

Comments

[kimsansf.livejournal.com]

Mama... I know we dont know eachother, and we just kind of 'met' online a few weeks ago... but I wanted to send my support your way. I know how hard it is and what a big transition it is to bring a baby home. Why dont we meet at T&T this week?

*hugs*

[ewigweibliche.livejournal.com]

That would be wonderful! It's a big transition. But a sweet one. Each day is different. Mostly, I'm doing ok, but the 3rd/4th is always a little nostalgic for me.

I would love to meet up at T&T. How is Wed for you? Time?

[kimsansf.livejournal.com]

wed is great! lets meet there at 1 ish? ... i think i sent you my cell phone number earlier, but send me a message if you dont have it.

[teamrose.livejournal.com]

Perhaps next time you could just walk nude with Benn in a wrap?

Ok, that wasn't funny. I tried though. ;D It's funny that sometimes feeling a little down can show us all the things we really enjoy. Last night, I was feeling like complete crap and just wanted my little girl...and then this morning when I heard the birdies chirping I was so elated. I remembered how much I love quiet mornings: just me, the birds, and a cup of coffee. You will adjust mama and you are doing wonderful thus far. Keep your head up.

And definitely awesome to have someone thank you for breastfeeding, your husband is awesome.

[ewigweibliche.livejournal.com]

My husband rules, it is true.

I can't wait for Sophia to come either!

[said-by-me.livejournal.com]

I love ya girl

[hrafntinna.livejournal.com]

Happy baby and happy fourth. I'll add some gratitude coming your way: thanks for asking us to haul up to Juneau one year ago to celebrate with you. I'm honored to have been apart of it, and my life wouldn't be the same now if I hadn't made the trip. Thank you.

[ewigweibliche.livejournal.com]

Last year was really special. Being able to share all of it with you was my pleasure. One of these years I would love to see Iceland with you. I am so so happy for you (and alizarin71) that things worked out as they did, even if part of my being down was his fault. ;) Damn leaving.