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[theatokos]

I'm struggling a little. I went for a walk with B in a wrap and it didn't lift my spirits liked I'd hoped. Of course, I was over dressed for the temperature + baby + wrap. I'm just T.I.R.E.D. And I am always, with out fail, homesick over the 3rd and 4th of July. As much as it is a drunken crazy fest in Juneau, it's still like the most major holiday, with reunions and all kinds of wonderful hometown events. I miss it. I've also been worried about B's (lack of) weight gain, even though he seems to be thriving. I'm just adjusting in general still, but ..... some days are easier than others.

So, gratitude. Sometimes when I'm a little down it's actually easier to see what I'm grateful for. I'm not too happy to forget to notice, nor so bummed out that I'm wallowing in woe-is-me.

I am grateful for:
*hot cocoa
*abundant clean water
*a partner who loves being a father, wearing his son in a sling and gives me encouragement, even thanking me for breast feeding
*my son - who is healthy, though tiny, and seems to be developing right on schedule
*my upcoming midwife appointment
*breast feeding support expected_chaos
*my own health
*the ability to sustain life
*the experience and diversity of the mamas I've come to know on LJ

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[ewigweibliche.livejournal.com]

Last year was really special. Being able to share all of it with you was my pleasure. One of these years I would love to see Iceland with you. I am so so happy for you (and alizarin71) that things worked out as they did, even if part of my being down was his fault. ;) Damn leaving.