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I am pregnant. Yes, you already knew that. What you may not be aware of is that I can already sense the pregnancy hormones coursing through my veins. And what that means is that my tact is even more diminished than normal. I read a one page article in the Economist and one paragraph set me off fuming. Now, all the thoughts I had were thoughts I would agree with on a non-pregnant day, but it's the *intensity* of it that is rather surprising.

However, I kind of like it. It's nice to just be in a Fuck All Y'all place. Or a place where I can freely cry. God, I wish I could cry normally, so relieving! The next 7.5 months would be an extremely bad time to try to convince me that feminism is a form of mind-control by the lesbian separatists. Or that Obama is really a socialist. Or basically to disagree with me on anything.

Please note that you have been warned.

Date: 2010-07-06 04:26 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
What about that Obama is really a lesbian?

Date: 2010-07-06 05:03 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
HA!! You go right ahead and try to convince! I would enjoy that very much.

Date: 2010-07-06 05:28 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
I remember this from last time. Heh.

Date: 2010-07-06 08:11 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Yeah..... you caught some of that when you visited that fall. Which by the way, is the last time I saw you. Three years this October. This will not stand!!

Date: 2010-07-06 05:58 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Yeah, I remember this too. It was so extreme that it got kind of tiring, actually. I gave a seminar where a guy asked an annoying question, and I got so worked up that I had to cry in the bathroom for half an hour afterwards to unwind. Then at one point I caught myself screaming "F*** you!" down the phone at some underpaid consumer services representative. That was the point where I thought to myself, "what kind of message would this behavior send to my unborn child?' and I tried to keep a lid on it after that.

Date: 2010-07-06 08:10 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Wow, well so far my irrationality is relegated to erratic LJ posts on feminism and politics, and crying jags with Adam.

Date: 2010-07-06 07:44 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Oy! I'm glad you are enjoying it.

I can only *wish* Obama were really a socialist.

Date: 2010-07-06 08:05 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Ha! Obama needs to pick a side and commit. Sigh.

I'm enjoying it so far. But we'll see as it goes on. Also, I'm nervous about how this will play out 'professionally', ie when I'm writing papers and have to write about stuff I feel strongly about or when facing criticism or something. Eep.

Date: 2010-07-06 08:11 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
For me it was hard being pregnant and dealing with my comprehensive exams, especially the oral exam, during which I started feeling dizzy and had to run into the bathroom and cry for 15 minutes. When I came back to the room the professors, who were all male, softened their tone considerably. It was amusing and humiliating at the same time. My dissertation proposal defense was a week before Sam was born and that was a lot easier for some reason. No crying. So who knows.

Date: 2010-07-06 08:14 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
I am SO glad I don't have exams or proposal defenses! Sweet lord. I hate the US more and more (oh, hello there hormones!). But I still have to write shit.

Date: 2010-07-06 07:49 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Duly noted!

I find it hard to imagine not being able to cry normally. Although I have the opposite problem :/

Date: 2010-07-06 08:03 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
I wish I could cry more easily and often. I'm just not a crier. ....except when I'm pregnant. I'm pretty much a bitch all the time. ;)

Date: 2010-07-06 08:39 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Interesting Is this a generational mind set?
When we were pregnant back in the dark ages of second wave feminism we were determined to prove pregnancy made no difference in our efficiency.

I came across country in a u-haul truck at three months pregnant. Settled into a new house and went back to work at six months pregnant organizing a new intake system for a social work agency. I worked until two days before my delivery. Never missed a day and only the last month was a bit stressful. And that because I had to repeatedly deal with the same agency over the same issue.

Pregnancy was a bar to employment. I was refused my old job because I was pregnant. A more forward looking agency was happy to hire me. We wanted no concessions made to our pregnancy. There are still women who fight to do their job even though pregnant. The radio this morning had a piece on pregnant war correspondents in Iraq.

Women are strong! Historically they have born their children under the most adverse circumstances and carried on. We do what we have to do and what we want to do.

Date: 2010-07-06 08:45 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
What is a generational mind set? That being pregnant is hard? No, it's just fact. I don't believe anything that has been written here contradicts the idea that women are strong. I moved house at 5 months pregnant. I worked. I never had a real maternity leave. I took my baby to work with me. We didn't and don't own a car, so I walk every where.

And still my hormones are surging. Pregnancy does change a woman. How could it not? It's absurd to think that it wouldn't. This doesn't mean that women can't still work, and do it well.

Date: 2010-07-07 10:01 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Must just be attitude.
My friends and I pregnant in the early "70's did NOT cry. We made a point of having our emotions under control because men expected us to be emotional and therefore "inferior". We had some thing to prove. If our hormones surged I guess we just ignored them. Women were considered to be "irrational" when pregnant. We were out to prove that notion wrong.

You sound quite capable.

Date: 2010-07-08 08:00 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
I am very glad not to have been a woman in the 70s!

Date: 2010-07-06 09:49 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
I wonder if now would be a good time to write some papers. From personal (albeit male) experience, some of my best marks have come from essays that began as a good long rant about something. If you're getting into that frame of mind, you could spin some gold ;)
Edited Date: 2010-07-07 12:08 am (UTC)

Date: 2010-07-07 07:13 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Oooh, I like the way you think!

Date: 2010-07-06 11:39 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
fun times ahead!

Date: 2010-07-07 07:13 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Seriously. Watch this space.


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