A Fresh Start

We're moving. Holy crap. The house is chaos. Bennett is regressing a little. He MUST be with mama ALL THE TIME>. I am going insane.

Quick question for the mama brain trust: Can you put a car seat in a Uhaul truck? I know they're bench seats. What say you about driving 8 hours with a 13 month old in a car seat in a Uhaul?

ETA: Never mind. We're not all driving down. B and I am flying and Adam is driving. I love my son, but today I'm really burnt out.

*Our internet died for two days. During that time Michael Jackson also died. Coincidence?

*I heard LJ crashed from all the OMG MICHAEL JACKSON DIED posts. Glad I was out of the loop.

*Less than 6 hours of sleep last night. Going down to San Jose and Mountainview was totally worth it.

*I'm reading Watchmen. It's ok. I can see how it was a mind blower at the time. Sorry, hrafntinna. Still working my way through Jonathan Strange and Mr Norrell. It's what I read aloud to Bennett, so we only get a chapter or two a day. Next up on my reading list: the Promethea graphic novels for me and for reading aloud purposes, The Magic Pudding.

*We leave town in three weeks. I STILL have NOT received my visa paperwork from the University. I... I just... It's a really good thing that I am many thousands of miles away because I need to lay down the admin law over there. AAAHHHH! I NEED TO APPLY FOR MY FUCKING VISA.

*I am beginning to be more than a little preoccupied, stressed and distracted with all that needs to be done in the next 3 weeks/2 months. I find that my attention span is not very big, my capacity for others is limited. I'm not a very good friend these days, I fear.

You're not the only one wondering. Just about daily I get one or two people asking about details and status and what's left, etc. I'll try and lay it out here. I think it'll be good for me to brain dump.

( Cut for kindness )

WALES IS ON.

Lampeter, you better watch out, because I am coming.

The next few months are going to be INTENSE as Adam and I scramble to come up with several thousand more dollars and budget so tightly that we're only eating toast for two months. I foresee some confusion and nail biting, but I believe this is happening.

My adviser was so encouraging and enthusiastic. She even feels confident that Adam will be able to find a job.

Wales, here we come!

So tired.

Boot camp. All day with B. Spent 4 hours walking around in the rain with B strapped to me. Seriously, good fun. I made a great pasta dinner. We watched three episodes of Scrubs. I've had two glasses of red wine. I am ready to pass out. It's 10 past 9 on a Friday night. My apartment is warm and Ella Fitzgerald is playing. Why do I want to move to Wales again? Thankfully the wine is dulling the panic. I don't remember there being a bookstore in Lampeter.

Time to go crawl in next to my sleepy boy and snuggle up. Life is beyond good tonight.

What a great day today is. Really. This whole weekend has been great. Making some decisions about my mental health has turned me around. I like it. Today B, Adam and I went to the park nearby to get out. It's in the 80s here - first hot day since fall. We witnessed BMX Critical Mass - 200 males on BMX bikes descending on the park. It was great! And then the Oakland Police showed up. This made me nervous. But everything was fine. No one died.

As I lay on my blanket I decided to make some lists about things I'll miss (and not miss) about leaving the Bay Area.

( Here goes )

Adam and I just culled at least 25% of our books. It was easy. We've always struggled with what to keep, what to get rid of; we've been very stingy. We really must be ready to leave because it was just bam, zap, pow. Comic books, fiction, poetry, women's history, loads of poker books...

(I won't pay for shipping or type them all out, but if you're a real book hoarder I can email you my phone number and we can go through them and if you pay for shipping, I'll totally give them to you!)

My goal now is to work through the books I haven't read that I decided to keep. Hardcovers first, then paperbacks. We are planning to do another cull closer to when we move. Whenever that is.